Kategoriarkiv: 2012-03

Doe-eyed nerd girl

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Just got home from work. I am tired and watching RuPaul’s Drag Race untucked and hoping to find a torrent for yesterday’s episode soon… I have heard about some juicy drama, mwaha :3 I want to seee iiiiit!

I am thinking about writing some more RPDR posts here, for my own sake tbh, but not sure if I will bore you with my rants about pretty queens and dramas and whatnots?

Work drama. Yes. Today I have been dressed as shown above. Black pants, longarmed blue/black shirt and grey washed out Batman shirt from children’s department at H&M (le fashion blog here!). Not sure if this is still attention whoring? This is pretty much what I wear to work… /shrug

Feeling chubby today. I have gained weight again. Pro: Ze butt. It is le awesome right now :3 Con: The tummy. I am chubbylicious :( meh meh meh. Should I go back to liquids again? :P (not cereal guys, don’t worry :P)

I’ll turn 28 in a week but I am still only 12

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I learned from a friend yesterday that people are talking about me in my working place. I swear, sometimes that office reminds me more of a daycare center than a working place, with all the silly drama that is going on.

It seems that people think I am an ”attention whore” for dressing different. I can only guess that it is my different looks that is attracting these thoughts from people, because even though I wear skirts I don’t really have shorter skirts than the other girls, and I reall never go with a cleavage since I think that looks really tarty. So I guess that even though I am pretty much covered from top to toe this is still enough for me to be ”whoring for attention”. What is this I don’t even.

I shouldn’t care. I know. Let them have their silly drama and just ignore them. But fuck that, because words still hurt. Deep down I still carry my 12 year old self around, and she is sad from hearing that people are still talking about me. I dress the way I do because I like it, because my clothes represent me and because I want to look good. Is that really that weird..?

/shrug. I dunno. People are just so damn judgemental. I guess I am too, but I don’t talk behind stranger’s backs, saying that they are this and that and lol.

I just need to get out of the sandbox before I really start being a bitter person. I don’t like this. I want to be happy and joyful and, goddamnit, down straight NAÏVE at times. Instead I am bitter, depressed and cynical. La di da.

Ohwell. Time to get dressed for another day of attention whoring, I guess…

If you knew Time as well as I, you wouldn’t dream of wasting him!

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I had these really weird dreams that made me stressed. I was still in school and I realized I was too late, I wasn’t going to make it in time. Our first class was History and the teacher was a real bitch, so I started running and when I got to school I was there with 20 minutes to spare – until I realized I had ran to my OLD school instead of the current one! But I still got there in time, because somehow we were using the Academic 15 minutes in High School. Then we were going to have Gymnastic class, but I had forgotten to bring my gym clothes so I made up a story about having been asked to sweep the dressing rooms, and since we had a substitute teacher she believed it. I found a note from one of the bosses at work informing the teacher that one of his guys were on the way, but that he had overslept and was almost blind and had walked in the wrong direction. He was almost at ”the Casino” which was obviously Visby Airport because they had a Casino there now. /shrug

Alarmed called, I woke up and started to think about the dream and then I realized I was about to fall asleep again. Argh! So I rushed up, got into the shower and here I am now.

I just really, REALLY hate not being on time. It is normal for me to have nightmares where I am late to school/work/meetings/whatever. I have been late for school once in 12 years and work twice in 9 years, so yeah. That is still three times too much! (school = overslept, no idea why. work = schedule change no one informed me about & iphone bug when we went to Daylight saving time)

*stressed out*

Mad Love

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Because sometimes every girl has the need to dress up like a psychotic villain

Lazy sunday. I haven’t really done anything today. I painted my nails yellow, took a foot bath, listened to a lot of nice music, watched 5 episodes of RuPaul’s Drag Race s4 and that’s about it. Never did anything yesterday either, I realized I don’t have any money so couldn’t really go out empty handed like that :P

So I was bored. Bored out of my mind! And the night was so far away at all times, so I couldn’t go to bed either. I was just bored and restless and wanted to DO SOMETHING, but I didn’t know what. I am bored today aswell, but today it’s a sunday and sundays are supposed to be boring.

Anyway. I love RPDR s4! It’s as good as the previous seasons ^^ Got my favorites down and ready, but I don’t think any of them will win, sadly. It’s never my favorites that win :P Same goes for every show I watch; Project Runway, Hell’s Kitchen, Top Model… Bah. I think I will have to root for the one I like the least instead, and that would automatically make the one I *really* like win, right? SOUND LOGIC IS SOUND AND FLAWLESS.

Yeah, anyway. Will probably take a walk today, even though it is raining. Otherwise I’ll just go to bed early and read instead… Bah. Looking forward to next weekend though, with my birthday party and all! Yup, this old lady is getting older. Eeek! …nevermind :D

I kind of only wore that catsuit at that one time, and it was only for a photo thing. Bah. I look chubby in it, and flat. Not a good combination guys!