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Fuck everything, I need to LARP!

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Suddenly it dawned on me: Fuck everything, I need to LARP! So yeah. I have spent today looking at a lot of different sites to get some inspiration, because I need to sew new clothing to wear. Don’t worry, I finished my work early and I was even able to throw in some extra bang for the buck – I would never neglect my work to browse for my hobbies. Also, most of the sites I wanted to visit are blocked at work anyway :P

I am about half-finished with the chainmail vest I am building for Robin, and then I have another four to build since people ask me for it as soon as I mention that I like building chainmail. I just don’t want to take proper orders until people have seen the finished result. I know it’s good, but I want people to be sure this is what they want so that I don’t put time, effort and money into something they realize they don’t want. Since my rings are almost out I ordered some new today, and I am really, REALLY hoping that they will get here before friday. I don’t think they will though, but yeah. Hope is still nice, eh?

Anyway. LARP. I don’t have a concept, I don’t have a character, I don’t have any fabric, I don’t know what the heck I am doing (again) and still I have spent the day listening to my LARP playlist on Spotify and dreamt about running around in the woods again. I kind of need this. If I can’t have Gotland beneath my feet I can at least pretend to be someone else and go browse the woods for enemies and friends and whatnot. I am the huldra, remember? (yeah, I know that I am not really a huldra, but sometimes I got it in me and… aw, whatever. I am crazy, ok?)

So yeah. I need to at least decide on a concept so I can start looking at what I need to sew, then I have to figure out how much money I am lacking for fabric and how much time I won’t have to sew since I am building a chainmail lol. Ohgodsthisisgoingtobebad. Anyway, I am crazy and creative and inspired so fuck you, I will give this a try even though it will probably just end up in tears, pain and misery anyway. Hey, I may be a controlfreak but I don’t know what’s good for me so I keep putting myself into situations I may have been wanting to avoid. Krigshjärta last summer was good for me but it was also OH SO BAD for me. Since I had no control, for instance. And since I kind of freaked out a couple of times because I was running out of time, didn’t have anything planned and things kept being messed up. This time around… it will be the same damn story again. But I am stronger now! …ohwait, not really. I am still trying to come back from the depression and yeah. Um. THIS IS GOOD FOR ME SHUT UP.

Anyway. The woods, the woodssss!

…and biiiiiig guns! ♥

Top picture – photo Eric Hejdström, photo taken at Stavgard, Gotland
Bottom picture – photo Carina Hellberg, photo showing the cannon ”Zorn des Rudigers”

Improve me ♥

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I’ve been doing some thinking. About this blog, and it’s content. A vast majority of what I publish is more or less crap, as I try to update twice daily with uninteresting texts about what I think I may have dreamt, or what I am going to do in the evening. I bores you and it really isn’t that exciting for me, either. So what I was thinking was this:

I could update more seldom, and instead put more thought and work into what I publish. Perhaps this would still mean daily updates if I am inspired, or it could mean one post a week. I still update my Twitter feed daily with whatever random things I feel like expressing, and there’s always some updates at Facebook (for my friends; I am considering starting a fan page there but not sure if this would be a good idea since no one would like it :D) so people will still be able to get some Zombie action on a daily basis.

But I want your opinions here, so I created a poll. I don’t want people to leave a comment on Facebook instead of voting here, as I erase the old blog links when I think they are no longer current :P
If you don’t think the options available are good enough, leave a comment to this post and let me know what you think.

[poll id=”2″]

Thank you :)

I’m just tired, ’s all

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I am feeling stuck, currently. Stuck in this neverendning hamster wheel, with no chance of getting out. There are so many things holding me back and I don’t know how to fight them off and get on, get out, get free. I am just a bit low today, it’ll get better. I hope.

And these weird dreams I’ve been having lately, they confuse me to no end. They are way too cohesive, it’s like looking at a movie. And the stories… I don’t even. But I like dreaming. I just think it sucks that I can’t remember my dreams all that clearly nowadays so I could write them down, as I used to do when I started blogging. Reading through my old dream logs is such fun, because as I read I can picture them in my head.

And all of a sudden, thursday. They do sneak up on you, don’t they? Wasn’t it monday like …yeterday?

I need to reinstall my computer. It is getting clearer and clearer each day. And I hate it. I always fuck the backup up, so that I have three copies of the same file and none of another file. Argh! This working with tech support haven’t really rubbed off on me when it comes to backing up files, lol. But if I actually DO reinstall my computer I will try to sort things out for once so that I can stop the ever ongoing confusion I have when I try to find specific files. I just hope that I won’t be having the same issues this time around as I got last time I reinstalled, where the system gets laggy and feels slower.

But yeah. Time to get dressed and go back into my wheel. Spin spin spin.

The day after

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Today is a less exciting day than yesterday. There’s really not much to say about the day AFTER your birthday; Then you are just old(er), the end. Just got out of the shower, I guess that is the most eventful thing that will happen today :P

97 friends posted on my wall on Facebook yesteday. It really is overwhelming. Thank you, again :) I am happy that you all like the fact that I just got older ;)

Sleepy today. Kind of stayed up until late yesterday, reading Sandman. I like it! Comic books is the shit ♥
Oh, speaking of TEH SHIT: My brother is giving me a wide angle lens for my camera for my birthday! (and christmas). That is like BEYOND awesome. Love you ♥♥♥

…I don’t really have any interesting to say right now :3 Cheers!

♥ Thank you all ♥

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I am overwhelmed by the amount of birthday wishes I have received today. So far I’ve received over 80 congratulations on Facebook only – I didn’t even know I knew that many people! If all birthdays are like this I won’t even fear another birtday again. I can’t even express how amazed I am by all the love you have given me today, and I just want to say I love you too ♥

I even got a piece of cake from the team today! :3 And lots of hugs, yay ^^ I like hugs.

Thank you all for making my birthday this amazing!

Birthday girl

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Once upon a time I was a tiny, supercute baby girl. Now I’m a grown up, scary zombie. How things have changed ;)

I had such weird dreams last night, but I can’t remember. I just remember I was upset and tried to run away, but I was stuck in this strang world and I couldn’t get out of there. But I was less bewildered when I woke up today than yesterday, when I actually did this crazy turnaround before I got up. Instead of turning to the left, where my phone is, I actually did this really weird and panicked turn to the right, so I had to turn all the way to get to the phone. That kind of amused me when I eventually did get up to think about it, haha.

Yes, as you can see from my post yesterday  evening I am neglecting everything that has to do with computers right now, as I am busy building a chainmail shirt. I put some pictures about this on facebook and now I have been asked to build more chainmail, haha. We’ll see when this piece is finished, I think. My hands are sore and swollen and my wrists are aching, but I am happy because I like building stuff ^^ The best thing about chainmail is that you can actually see the progress! Not ring by ring when you have started to getting somewhere, but there is always a visual progress which I like :) I hate when I have to spend hours on the zigzag when I sew, because it’s a lot of work but it doesn’s show. As soon as I can start putting the pieces together is when I am happy, because that is when the progress is showing. I am very visual oriented like that :)

Going out for birthday dinner with my brother and my ex tonight. Steakhouse! Mmmeat! :3 I am thinking Black & White, om nom nom ♥